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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 03:15

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

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Im still living with it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I don,t even have a pension.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

How do I deal with autistic burnout/meltdown/shutdown when cooking?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

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Comes on , in middle age.

My life is so biszare .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

What is quantum entanglement?

So, i spoilt her more .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I will be 64.

So whats the point in blame.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We all went to grammer schools

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(And it was in our own minds.)

It was going to be , some day.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Would this be the day?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Which is a better option, a love marriage or an arranged marriage in India?

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And i lived it daily.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My family never makes their pension either.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I know ,a lot about trauma.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I think the readers, may guess!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I write beautiful poetry .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Ive learnt so much.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Put me off passion for life!!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But, we were locked up after school.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I have no regrets .

All the time i was locked up.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She wouldn,t have been !

This is soul school!.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was 9 years of age.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Who then, do I blame.?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One cannot live in the past .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

She married twice! .

What did i know ?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But it wasn’t much.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He resisted the act ,that day.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was very sick at this time too.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Especially a lifetime of it.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

When she asked me how she looked .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We were not on the streets..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She loved him until the end.

She was in good health!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was seconnd youngest,

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I waited trembling.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He knew the spot.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was scared of men, in general

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I said to her

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She found it foreign!.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.